Weeks & Days

36 weeks of pregnancy & back aches

36 weeks of feeling tired, sick and hungry non stop

36 weeks of hormones driving me insane

36 weeks I complained she wasn’t coming soon enough

36 weeks of pregnancy & I wouldn’t take it back at all

36 weeks of waiting to meet my special # 3

4 Weeks spent choosing the perfect name

36 weeks waiting to hold her, smell her and kiss her

12 weeks to bath her, dress her & brush her hair

12 weeks of smelling her, kissing her & caring for her

12 weeks of feedings every 3 hours

12 weeks of sleepless night

12 weeks of amazing irreplaceable love

12 weeks of teaching

48 weeks of planning her life

1 Halloween we shared

1 Thanksgiving we shared

1 Christmas we shared

& 1 New Year’s we had together

So many things I had planned beyond 12 weeks of life

I spent so much time wondering at how many months she would walk

I wondered what her favorite first food was going to be

So many dreams of her & her sister being side by side

So many hopes for what she would learn

So many wonders about her attitude

So many plans for her hair styles

So many kisses I have left for her

So many hugs I need from her

So many secrets we were to supposed to share

So many reasons why I need her here

So many reasons why this is all wrong

So many questions unanswered

36 weeks I carried my baby girl inside of me

36 weeks I waited to hold her in my arms

12 weeks I was given to show her how much I loved her

I could count her life in weeks

I could count her life in days

My daughter’s life can be counted in weeks or days

There is no greater pain than this fact

Make every day count